Story time no. 7

Had my follow up appointment for my back today. The MRI shows I definitely herniated a disc between the lumbar/sacral region. No nerve involvement so no surgery. Yet. However, if the disc continues to degrade then surgery is where we are headed.

So now this puts me in a weird mental space. Do I continue being a bedside nurse, knowing that I’m going to potentially hurt my back more, or is it time for that cushy office job where I’m not pulling patients? I love direct patient care. I love being at the bedside. My back, however, is not in agreement. I’m a trauma nurse, I’m going to be pulling and tugging. It’s inevitable. My coworkers have been AMAZING at trying to help me out when they see my back is causing me pain. They opt to take the “pulling side” when we turn so I don’t have to strain myself. They put me at the head of the bed holding c-spine so I’m not having to do a whole lot. They have really “had my back” so to speak.

But it’s not fair to them. They shouldn’t have to potentially hurt themselves so I don’t hurt my self any further. I’m starting to feel like a burden. I don’t like that.

So now it’s time to make some big decisions…

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6 thoughts on “Story time no. 7

  1. Knowing how hospital policy works, is it a work related problem? What kind of decisions do you need to make? Maybe it’s time for a management or educational based job. You have a knack for teaching! Think about it. Your health is important! 🌷 Christine

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  2. To help with the decision making in general, take a step back from this particular topic and look at your life in general. Recall manifested desires you’ve experienced. Look for a pattern, and if your assessment shows you things working out better than expected, then I would put my faith and trust in that. 😊

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